Desperation

What is easier to say ‘your sins are forgiven’ or just to say ‘get up and walk’

Jesus said I will prove to you that I the Son of Man have the authority and right on earth to forgive sins - and he said to the paralysed man ‘stand up take your mat and go on home because you are healed’ and instantly the man jumped to his feet for the forgiveness of God – the forgiveness which comes from God is so complete and so powerful that it manifests its effectiveness by healing and dissolving what power sin did have and all of the ways it took of its manifestation in our flesh and in our spirits and hearts and minds and the joy of God is released for all to see …

For Jesus guarantees the effectiveness of this better covenant - this new covenant.

And the effect and effectiveness of the new covenant was seen in not only his authority to forgive sins - but in the power which is held in forgiveness which is the same power which heals all of which has kept us away from God and is all of which brings us now back to him

Jesus forgave the sin and closed the gap between us and God - and the healing of God manifested in us as the confirmation of the reconciliation with him - while the covenant for the forgiveness of sins which was in the blood of Christ was made evident to us and in us;

For Jesus paid the penalty for sin: the cost of reconciliation back to the eternal God and eternal life and he took the debt and set us free to live the life that the cross of Christ had given us; free to live the life which was the result of all of which the Lord had put into effect as he lived his appointed life on earth and as he practised in secret, and grew in stature remaining faithful and loyal to his Father and his God as the power of God and the word of God and the ways of God came into his life more and more as he practised and followed the ways his Father had set before him –for he was not born knowing who he was or what would be required of him in its fullness – we may think yes we know he was born of a woman and was fully man and within that humanity he felt as we do and hurt as we do and ate and drank and became tired and angry as we do - but in the back of our minds we are also saying yes but- he is God so he could do it better than us – because he knew already what would happen and what he had to do that is why he could live a life without sin - and for it to be easy for him

And we take away from Jesus what he did endure and the life he really lived on this earth as fully man – for he did not always know his destiny – who he was in the fullness of the sacrifice - but God the Father grew him in stature and taught him the difference between right and wrong and he had to do the work and put in the practise and be faithful in his listening and his communications with the Father and in his obedience and in the acceptance of who he was - as the Father poured into him the revelations of the Son of God – because he was not born knowing what he knew while he was still with the Father in heaven – for he was as us, but remained without sin or lie to corrupt him and to separate him from the Father and his word

But when we want the practise to be less, and the power to be more we take away from all of what the Lord did before us - and feel we have the rights to an instant relationship with God and with his power – but Jesus already made it so that we do not have to hang on a cross for six hours with the sin of the world upon us and the wrath of God tearing into us – he alone did that – but as for our relationship with the Father we alone have to build that and can only do it through Jesus Christ and in the same way he did it while he was on this earth

And if we are feeling in our hearts then after the practise and the obedience and the focus what then?

Well after the years of practise and the years of obedience and focus what then was there for Jesus? – What was then for him after he practised and practised and allowed God to prepare him in the weakness of a man so as to reconcile man back to God – what came after he practised tirelessly in secret and dedicated his life to God’s will

God revealed him to the world and he gave what he had received and he forgave sins as he was given the authority by the Father - and he healed the sick and drove out demons and raised the cripples and gave sight to the blind and hearing to the deaf and brought the dead back to life and gave abundance in the sight of men – What was then for him who practised and remain loyal and without sin and without any deceit or corruption?

What was then for him - was a walk to a cross which brought him agony of spirit and flesh but which gave to us eternal salvation and the covenant of the forgiveness of sins and brought to us resurrection and life – that was where his total loyalty to God and his destiny and God’s word and his unwavering focus and sheer desperation to do the things of God on this earth took him – further into God the Father and the promises of his heart - what also was then for him after his life which he devoted and gave to God for his use - was humiliation and brutality and betrayal and sleepy disciples of whom he had given freely what he had received and who did not even have the desperation in them to stay awake with him in his hour of desperation as he came to the hour and the purpose for which he was sent - when he prayed to the Father three times to take this cup away from him if that were possible

For it was not the grandeur of the power that inspired him to practise for we do not know even if he fully knew at that stage all of which he would be manifesting or required to do – nor was he inspired by the prospect of having men come and flatter him because of his words of wisdom and his teachings or his miracles which had not been seen before … for what the practise and obeying God and learning right from wrong and then choosing the right and then remaining loyal to his Father brought to him was that he would be the perfect sacrifice – given once for all for the forgiveness of sins

Jesus was inspired to fulfil this life on earth because of what it would bring to the Father and as the revelation of that poured into his form of flesh and brought his heart and mind and spirit into the same oneness with the Father which he had while he was still in the glory with him - where the relationship they had was one which would transcend all the weaknesses of the flesh - and he was grown in stature and favour with God and men – there was and would be no ‘what then’ and ‘what now’ to be asked of him back to God – because of their relationship which was heart to heart and soul to soul and mind to mind and spirit to spirit … as the Father revealed all to him through the revelation of eternal relationship

For Jesus put the covenant into place fulfilling its criteria as he walked to the cross to confirm it – just as he died for us while we were still enemies of God so he forgave us while we were still under the penalty of sin – he brought forgiveness to us and said take it and now I will go and pay for what I have given freely of - for he took our debt and made it his own - paid for it and then turned it back on itself for he now owned the rights to it - the One who lives forever owned the rights to that which brings death and gave unto it its own idolatry – gave it unto its own sting

For we received the new covenant of the forgiveness of sins in a new way – in a very personal through Jesus as he allowed us to see God in a way we had never seen him before through the flesh of one who looked just like us - so it could be with that same personal intimacy that we would could relate and work with God through his Holy Spirit bringing the mediator of the new and eternal covenant back to this earth which is soaked in his blood and his life’s work

For forgiveness is given with the power held in the covenant and with the better word that the blood of Jesus does speak

For it was firstly issued out from Jesus who was taught the mastery of sin by his Father for Jesus is the one who paid the penalty for sin and can do as he wants with it for he paid the debt and now owns the rights to do as he pleases with it - for he has no sin in him but knows its nature and will use its nature to bring glory to God - as he takes hold of it and dissolves its power or uses its weaknesses as he takes it and makes it honour God as it bows in submissiveness to him who is the Master of Life – and as he shows us this teaching and gives unto us the authority of which was given unto him and as we are receiving of the Holy Spirit in the same manner as Jesus and sent in the same manner as Jesus and work in the same manner as Jesus so that whatever sins we forgive are forgiven for God’s glory and those we do not forgive are not forgiven for God’s glory and it is for us to know the difference for Jesus brought us the difference and he taught us the difference – because he is the one who made the difference for when he became sin and paid the penalty of it he so divided it – and divided it falls – as it is divided into sins which are to be remitted and sins which are to be retained for that is what will make the difference - that is what will bring down the thickest and strongest of walls which have been set up against God .

For the power which was lost and the revelations which were lost are now restored and in resurrection status and all of which Jesus so displayed in all its greatness will now display Jesus in all of his greatness giving him increased exaltation and increased glory and manifestation - for the Lord has to have received more from this – more from the delay we have caused and more from the disobedience we have manifested - for God works all things out for the good of those who love him and who has loved him more than Jesus - and he will be the receiver of the more as the workings of God are revealed - for through all of his patient endurance and anguish and desperation he will receive all in its greatest measure for there is honour and glory for God even when we are disobedient and will not listen to the one the Father sent on his behalf – for it will never be that God – that the Lord will not have his word always working for his glory and the glory of his Son – and out of all things that we fall short in he will use it to increase his glory and praise

For our God is not just intelligent or smart or wise he is above being brilliant and we will never ever be able to make his glory less lustrous – or less bright - or less splendorous because Jesus has already accomplished and fulfilled all of which gives it its unapproachable light

And even if we do just as Jesus did right from the beginning of his life on this earth - and even though it is what the Father wants - no one in their refusal to respond to where he is leading us - will ever take away from the glory God has already received from JESUS - that a Son of his did walk this earth and did live a life in full relationship with him in the flesh and in the Spirit and in the full truth of his Word – for all of which happens does not weaken our God or take away from him – it does bring him unbearable pain, but his strength will never waver and the fulfilment and satisfaction Jesus gave him will never diminish but only become more if that were possible - and his love does not subside nor his purpose for all of those of the flesh move from its target

He will always be God Almighty and live in unprecedented glory and praise for he could change his pain to joy in an instant, or his creation to dust in the blink of an eye .... but that is not the God we were made in the image of …that is not the God of Glory ... that is not the God who so loved the world that he sent his only begotten Son that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life – he is a God whose Son was perfected through suffering so he could lead all into eternal salvation and all of which is of the age to come.

And all of which is not of this world is our inheritance and we have to start using our inheritance to bring the one we are co heir with back to finish the last and final battle

We have to – and if it is not us it has to be someone else – Jesus did it as a man so now a man or woman has to do it just as Jesus did – it can not be one way it has to go two ways because we are reconciled back to God and are not separated from him any more

It is Jesus and us; and us and Jesus

And Jesus always backed up and fulfilled his word fulfilling the law and fulfilling the prophets and fulfilling and releasing the new covenant

He put into effect his words and now we put his words into effect

There is no decision to make for he has made it – for it will be one or it will be ones – and we are either with him or against him – we either gather with him or we scatter from him
For Jesus took the sin – And he replaced it with himself and the healing of God and the healing which God himself was receiving was given back to us in the fullness of power which comes when God Almighty who is immortal is healed as reconciliation and the process of it takes place as his forgiveness flows as the power and authority of it flowed through Jesus and into our hearts and minds and flesh and our souls and our spirits – for God knows all about every workings and even though sin came into life in Satan God knew how it worked for there is nothing of which God does not have the ultimate power over - for Jesus was going to be made sin – and he was going to receive the punishment for it and all of which it was - was going to be annihilated by all of who JESUS IS

Sin comes with a price on it – a price of which is death and a price of which the Lord paid for and then the blood of the eternal covenant for the forgiveness of sins raised him from the dead and the power of death was destroyed by the power of forgiveness which is in the blood of Jesus - for sin would sell itself to the highest bidder so as to see the cruellest of deaths for it sought to kill the Lord of Glory for it was without mercy and without the full revelation of God – for those who practise sin cannot understand the revelation of God and his ingenuity and his ways of bringing all and everything back to him - and he will use all of which is against him - for whoever thinks they have something which is above God and out of the reach of his word only proves that they do not know him or his Christ and have not practised and persevered with patient endurance for God will use all and everything of which is his - and of which he has paid full price for and use it with all the mastery of one who is above all else – whose glory is set above all else … for sin came at a price – but you cannot put a price on God’s Love – it cannot be bought and never can it be paid for –for what price can be put on Life eternal – what price do we put on what JESUS has given to us for when we consider the cost – when we consider the cost of following Jesus do we consider the cost to him when he did follow and do the will of the Father – how long did Jesus consider the cost to him before he came in the flesh and how long did he consider the cost to him after he was born into the world in a body of flesh and was fully human and now living as a man with all the human frailty that man has - how long did he count the cost as the Father continued to grow him and give him the revelation of his destiny as he absorbed and accepted it into now his heart and body of flesh and blood – while he felt and lived as one of the flesh and learned within his humanness right from wrong and how to choose what was right

If he told us to consider the cost of being a disciple then he too had to consider the cost – and he found a high price was to be paid - but even the high price he paid would always be worthwhile for there is no price which can be put on the love of God there is no price which could be put on the love he had for the Father. The cost of loving God is to hand our heart of hearts over to him and to be of a relationship with him which can only grow and be nurtured because he is in our heart of hearts and we are in his heart of hearts and communication with him is complete and without end.

And what it is that the Lord wants to release and to have come out of us – is power – and his power is God communicating with his people and to the world of which he so loved and how can he release that of himself – how can he communicate when we ourselves are not communicating with him or have a relationship of which Jesus has made it possible for us to have – for it is what he has paid for with his flesh and blood- paid for with his life and that is the giving up of his life on this earth unto God as well as giving up of it unto death

And the communication lay in our practise and in our determined focus and in our patient endurance - in our listening and in our obedience and in our total oneness with him no matter what comes after it

For our communication lay not in what comes after it but is in each second and every moment of the now - for each second and every moment is when we are to be speaking the language that Jesus spoke in his spirit as we identify with him and what he did in the moments and seconds and years even before he began his final and public walk to the cross - for then we are on the same page as he is, then we are in the same house he is, in and the same life, and with the same thoughts and with the same direction and understanding of the same costs –

And that is when we communicate with the Lord and when he can respond in power and revelation as we really step into the heart and spirit of his life and then he can once again respond in person - in the flesh – as he returns in response to our continued communication with him in all of the minutes and hours of our life and in all of the attitudes of our heart and our spirit as we really come into him further and he more into us – for we are not only in him and he in us as the Son of God at the level where he is in full power - but it is to have a relationship with him at where he came to begin his relationship with us in the flesh and to begin his earthly relationship with the Father – when he was in the initial stage of what is and was and will always be an eternal fellowship with God which he formed while in the flesh and while on the earth and while as fully man and in all of the weakness of humanity and he showed us that God begins fellowship with him at a place which will always give it a sure foundation - for even Jesus in his humanity had to have a foundation on which to build his relationship with God first as a boy – and then as a man does build his relationship with God and in doing so he became our sure foundation and the cornerstone the builders rejected.

If we cannot communicate and identify with him at ground zero before he was in full power and when he also was frustrated in his practise and before he saw any results and before the greatest of miracles were revealed – before he was revealed as the Son of God and the Saviour of the world – if we cannot identify with him before he knew his destiny and who he was in the fullness of the sacrifice - and speak to him, and listen to him, and learn from him at also this time in his life so as to establish with him and cement with him what can never be taken from us or from him - and what can only come into increase is our fellowship with him and the power that fellowship brings – and until then we will never understand his power nor how he attained it nor his sheer determination to maintain and control it - nor understand his focus which came out of the life he lived with those around him ; for his life was not always a joyful experience even before he went to the cross - and to understand his desperation and his relationship and his heart and his spirit and the language which is still within him – and we will never learn communication with him so as to be able to take it out of its religious facade – and take it back to where it started and listen to Jesus and then speak and identify with him at the most basic of levels - basic but it is the most powerful of levels for when Jesus was born power was born into this world - and when all of the pomp and glitter and talk is taken out of the way then the understanding he came to give us is clear - his language and his life more clear to us and the language of our hearts and our spirits making clear to him, that we understand him a little bit more

For he received the power of God but not before he received and accepted God as his God and as His Father and all of which he had purposed for his life as a man – not before he accepted the ways of God and patiently persevered and allowed his frustration and hurt and desperation to take him further into the heart of the Father and into what God had planned for him as his only begotten Son and for his creation - and not before the stature of which he had grown to and which was witnessed by God and knew by God – not before that stature would bring him to a place of God’s choosing where he would place him in a situation which brought him such desperation that he cried out to his Father three times to take the cup of suffering away from him - but in this time of prayer – this time of anguish and suffering he pushed further into God and into his Father and into their relationship of which was made anew while he walked as a man and he received the strength and a determination of focus which would make him unstoppable and which comes from such a complete relationship with God - and he received the power of heart and spirit to say not my will but your will be done – how hard do you think it was for him to say that and to mean it – to say it from his heart and to mean it from his heart and Jesus had a relationship with God like no other person – of a grade of a pureness which he wants us to have, and even he was put into situations which would cause him to cry out to God and to be brought closer to him – so we can do the same – it happened to Jesus so we can do the same – if the Father will put his only begotten Son into situations with the fullness of humanity in him and leave him in them to bring about what is eternal then how much more do we have to push into him in our times of desperation to bring about even what is of the temporary – so how much more for a sinner like us saved by grace through faith in Jesus Christ – how much more for us - for if the one who is and has always been of no sin had to push into God how much do we who comes through Christ have to do the same thing
For we take nothing away from what the Lord did and what he endured and persevered with and what brought him to his hour of desperation – nothing can we take away from him - not in his humanity and not in his Kingship for when we take away from him and what he really did - we take away from us and what we are now permitted to do through him

For when the disciples stopped their communication with him at its most fundamental and powerful level they could go no further and they could only lose direction and focus and slept when they should have been awake –but they were not awake and did not share his desperation – did not speak to him about his anguish nor his pray nor his state of mind nor saw into his eyes nor heard the cry from his heart or the distress of his spirit – and from their loss of communication with him at this level they would lose power and revelations and all of which they were taught was not put into practise or persevered - with but was mixed with what never should have been put into practise – they listened to the success they had and allowed their communication with the Lord slip away and become religious and formal instead of personal and intimate

And it became a flurry of words which were based around a new building they had constructed with words which were becoming walls the Lord would have to tear down and teachings which he would have to destroy and lack of power of which he would have to restore

The way Jesus was trained and grown and disciplined and raised by the Father he gave to us so we can do what he has done - for all of which he received from him and of which he freely gives us was received while he was fully man and not when he was fully God

And so how great and mighty and pure is a love and a power and a forgiveness which comes from a heart which has received and known discipline at the highest level - discipline from God - a grade and refinement which comes from his exquisite love – unsoiled – uncorrupted – and fully focused on the final goal where there are no ‘what then’s - but only seeing and drinking in what is happening now as his word moves in our life and brings all into the present

Just as Forgiveness when it moves out from a heart which has known full communication with God - not only in areas of great power and wisdom and knowledge but areas of which would fill the heart of a child – how that form of forgiveness raises to life and only through Jesus is this type of unsoiled forgiveness unleashed because of all which went before it – all of which drove him further and further into the Father as he was prepared to be the perfect sacrifice which would seal an eternal covenant – for the blood of the new covenant also raised Jesus from the dead for the blood of the eternal covenant was needed to raise the Lord back to life as it raises us back to life - as it is the covenant for the forgiveness of sins and the only covenant which dissolves the power of sin - dissolving what is in our hearts bringing them down as our hearts merge into the blood of Christ and become one in heart - for a heart which is of the Christ and which is of the passion of the Christ has to have in it a forgiveness which is eternally guaranteed, because we have eternally guaranteed through our merging with Christ, our relationship with God Almighty….

For we may practise and say well what now – but Jesus practised and what then?

The cross was what then – the desperate prayer of a man was what then – from a man who knew God and communicated with him all his life and based his whole life on this earth on being prepared for his last three years - and if our desperation does not make of such a fellowship with God – such a relationship as it began and remained within Jesus while full preparation to do the Father’s will took over his life as a man – then our relationship with him has not reached a maturity he is searching for in us

So how desperate are we really – desperate in earthly situations which put us into an agony of spirit because we see the agony of the flesh and the heart which will follow – but even more than this has to be our desperation to be all of the fullness of Christ - for only being at all of the fullness of Christ and all of which fills him as a man and as God - will bring our desperation into God’s glory as we melt into our Lord - coming to where we can listen to Jesus and communicate with him so deeply because we began our conversation with him right at the beginning of his life on this earth and have spoken with him all the way and only then can it reach into his eternal glory and into where he is now - and be of a true exchange between us because we are not just jumping on the bandwagon in the time in his life when power was manifested – when miracles were in abundance – but are in interchange in conversation with him through all of his times in secret preparation and in all the lonely times of his life on this earth – and when he practised and listened and learned the word of God – because his life on this earth gave him much loneliness and rejection long before he began his public life…and we may think it is too late to converse with him in the time he walked the earth but it is he lives all of it in the now - for there is no past or future only the present and all of which was and is and still is to come is what he is experiencing now – his life on earth is not gone from him and is still can be shared with us if we have the communication with him which is coming from a heart which has running through it threads of which we want interwoven into the Lord’s life for they are threads of our humanity which need to be joined to his – and it will only come to a time of desperation when our relationship with him has moved into its magnification and we see not the full garment as solid cloth but it is magnified and we see each thread and the distance between each one is so great – for there cannot be any distance between us and the Lord but it is how closely woven to him we want and need and are desperate to be – so there are no loose ends – no distance even when seen in the greatest of magnification

For Jesus went before us in every situation and in all circumstances and that is the only reason it is possible for us to come so close to God in such an intimate and knowing way of how he raised his only begotten Son - for it did not just happen – for Jesus was not born and instantly knew and did all things

Jesus made the way for us and there are reasons why it feels the way it does and why it takes us to places within ourselves and the Lord which seem of a hardness to endure - and seem as though the Lord should just take it from us and use his power to take us from point A to point B without us feeling any distress

For after all he is God Almighty and nothing is impossible for him to do – and if that is what he wanted to do to us he would have done it that way with Jesus – but he didn’t - and the Lord is looking for and wanting sons in the mould of Jesus Christ for that is what it takes to be an eternal son or daughter and not sons and daughters of the temporary - not ones in the shallowness of who man was before God’s Christ came and lived the life we all should have been already living and that is not to say that his life he lived was always full of joy and full of power and miracles and that it was easy for him - and that he did not have in his life all of which we do so endure as well

For he did not come to take us out of life and into some fairyland: but to enable us to go back into our life and to live it with God and in the power of God

And if it is handed to us and it is done instantly and without pain or distress and involves no unpleasantness and no searching into God and pushing into him and no desperate pleas and petitions offered up from us to the who can save us from our hour of anguish – then we will not be like Jesus - for the Father looks for us in Christ and looks for Christ in us and if we are in Christ we are as Christ and live as him and feel as him and receive and accept as him

And our God who has no beginning and no end is a God who has complete passion for those he has made – and he brings himself to us through Jesus and gives us a history of himself which is encaptured in time for that is the realm we live in and understand the most – so we could relate and identify with him seeing and understanding what is of no history because it has no beginning or end and to see that put into a perspective of time – as we saw the birth of Jesus and could be taken through his growing years and his ministry and his death and his resurrection and his ascension and his soon return so we can relate and identify to him in a time frame and to have a history and a beginning and an end as we know it - for we live in a world governed by time and the Lord puts it into a time frame and a life span and give us a history with him for he gives us what is of the now for us - so we can be of the eternal - and he brings us to him in ways which develop us and give maturity not yet seen in his creation as he opens us up to the more to what has not beginning and no end as he gave what is spiritual in the form of flesh and blood – to give us the maturity of God, as seen and heard and witnessed in Jesus Christ - and all of which he endured and suffered and experienced was in relation and proportion to what we would have to endure in our process of reconciliation with the Father and our restored relationship with him if we want to move out of the framework of time and into the process of no beginning and no end but to live all as of the present – and it is a process which has to be done by God and in his way - for it takes us into his exclusive domain and into his eternity and the more fully developed we are the more we know of eternity and know it is already in the present with us and to live in that, we have to be just like Jesus

The Lord gives us a snapshot of himself - for out of all of his revelations we have a snapshot of him and the kingdom and of the Father and of the Holy Spirit and of our inheritance and a brief viewing of all of which is of the realm of Spirit and Truth - and trust and loyalty - and love and forgiveness - and perseverance and patient endurance – a snapshot of Jesus Christ - but who has in their heart of hearts the desperation of JESUS CHRIST – a desperation to take the snapshot of Christ and his kingdom and his kingship and his crowns and to have that desperation to bring to God the victory so great, for it to be so indestructible within us that the sheer power of it – is what is driving us into the Lord and driving him back to earth and is what makes all who oppose him surrender their weapons for the weapon we now are revealing cannot be fought against – for nothing could prevail against the desperation and then determination and the undefeatable attitude of heart of which manifested in Jesus - and all of which he is telling us and showing us and even though we may think he is going from Kingship and crowns and then back to the battle and then back to listening and communicating and knowing more of him – he does it for a reason - he is giving us snapshots and moving us all over the place for that is what it is going to take for him to drive us into a place where if we are not fully with him then we are against him and if we do not gather with him then we will scatter from him - and he wants us know and to feel what it is like to have the Holy Spirit with us – to know his presence and to know the desperation and pain he feels for the time is nearly here when he will have to leave – and the separation from us for him is going to be unbearable but to make the pain a little less we have to start moving fully with the Jesus as he drives us to draw him back – if we have the desperation for Jesus to return – if our hearts are so fully and completely centred on his return and we have in us what is indestructible and which all else except God himself cannot stop then the Holy Spirit has done his job and the pain of his going will be eased a little for him

For when he is not here to convict those who do not believe in Jesus we will

When he is not here to power us forward and to reveal the words of Jesus to us we will be the manifestation of the revelations of Christ and be full of the power of his resurrection and life.

For it is with a desperation of heart that we want to cry out don’t go Holy Spirit for the separation from him is unbearable - not only because he is the power of God and the Spirit of God but because he is a part of us and lives in us - and for him to leave those he knows so well and has been with for so long fills his heart with an unbearable pain

But it is with the same desperation we are also crying out come Lord Jesus come - and there will be an interim period where we will be without the Holy Spirit and without Jesus back on earth and to move into this period it will be our hearts which will have to say and mean it – our hearts which say ‘not our will but your will be done Father’ – and with the knowing and the understanding that we will be alone on this earth without the Holy Spirit and without Jesus - in that desperation of that moment - of that hour - will we be able to, just as Jesus did - say and mean it - ‘not our will but your will be done Father’

For it is we have counted the cost and have listened to the commands and have practised his word and then it will be truly when we manifest patient endurance – and will understand that the all of the life of Jesus we needed to communicate with and to respond to for us to take the all of him into our hearts and into our spirits – the all of which his life involved from his birth to his ascension for we will be called to do as he has done and the greater things - and only if we can draw on our personal and intimate relationship with him will we be able to fulfil what we are called to do and perform it in the same way Jesus himself would have

For Jesus in all of his humanity called out with desperation to God the Father - for as fully man he went before us in all things and he alone made our reconciliation possible - and not only our reconciliation but a reconciling which is to bring us to where the Lord does fellowship with the Father and that is where he is truly now taking us

For just as Jesus, who is the first one appointed to rise from the dead had to also keep pushing further into the Father so will we in our hours of desperation, when it is that the Father’s will is being accomplished all around us and in us - for all of which the LORD responded to and went through was so we could do the same - and so be co heirs with him in the true sense of being co- heirs with him - for if it happened to Jesus it will in some degree happen to us

And if we think it has not already happened to him first then we are mistaken for he has taken it all on from the beginning to the end and only in him and with him will the full journey of Christ in us be able to reach its incredible fulfilment

For without our Lord we stand condemned – without our Lord any battle we may fight is already lost – without our Lord there is no hope of forgiveness – and no loving each other as he has loved us – and there will be no best which has been kept to last

For the greatest love of all has happened to us and is still happening to us and the travesty of it is that the greatest proportion of it goes unnoticed until the time for it to be noticed and truly responded to has passed

And it is with that same desperation and determination which sent our Lord to the cross that we can say and mean it - that it will not pass us by – it will not go unnoticed – it will not go unresponded to

The greatest love of all which has happened to us – the great love of Jesus Christ will be returned to him not in the future – not soon - BUT NOW –

For now is it for us to be of a desperation and an attitude that it is NOW we bring all back to God – now we do it all for the Father and for Jesus and for the Holy Spirit and it comes directly from our Lord and will flow directly into us when we have gone to him and wanted and understood and accepted and have been desperate to be with him and know him before he was of power – before he was of miracles – before he was declared in public as the Son of God – when he was still practising - when he was frustrated – when he was seeing no miracles but when he was still being driven with desperation into a relationship with the Father which would transcend the miracles and the power because the miracles and the power was only the effect of his relationship with God - only the outpouring of his oneness with him – the outpouring of God’s love on which there cannot be put a price

And when we say come Lord Jesus come – we are to remember that the Holy Spirit is also of a pain which is unbearable and of which we cannot totally take away but of which we can make a little easier - as he feels the desperation in our hearts and the truth of our words and to know we mean them when we say ‘not our will but your will be done Father’ - as we join with him and feel his pain for only he in us has given us the drive to bring Jesus back – only he in us has reminded us of all of the words of Jesus – only he in us has allowed us to say JESUS IS LORD – and only he, the Holy Spirit of God has made his elect able to stand and be at the Mount of Olives to welcome our Lord and as he watches us from the heavens- and his hand on us we will feel as he raises us to meet our Lord in the clouds –

THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT – for the relationship and friendship you have given us – that we may come to know the one true God and Jesus Christ whom he did send

THANK YOU SPIRIT OF SONSHIP - SPIRIT OF DAUGHTERSHIP AND SPIRIT OF KINGSHIP - We thank you the Holy Spirit of God Almighty -

AMEN FATHER – AMEN JESUS – AMEN HOLY SPIRIT